I have this big problem, and it's called my life.

It was quite a last minute decision for me to come to university. The entire time I was at school I didn't think about going at all. 

This was until the start of my final year of 6th form and all everyone was talking about was university. This was one of the first times I actually went  ''oh shit, I have to go have a life of my own soon.'' After a few meeting with some woman who had fuck all helpful to say I decided that going to university will if anything by me some time before I had to make a big decision. 

Drama was the only subject I ever enjoyed going to, so it seemed the perfect option to choose when it came on deciding on what subject to take. I used to love being one of the best in the class (big headed) as it was so far from the norm to what I was used to academically. I used to love the freedom that was in that classroom, you could put your own personal twist on what you had to do and create something you could be so involved in. 

However something has changed since those years of performing in room D2 of Corfe Hills School. I'm not sure if it's because I've changed or simply Iv'e lost the spark that I used to have with the subject. After 1 year and 4 lectures of studying drama in Winchester I'm seriously wondering whether there's any point of me being here. I was sat in my theatre in education/ drama in education lecture, the lecturer was speaking about the way that some people find drama not important and that it falls under English in the education curriculum. Prompting lots of students rolling their eyes and uttering how ridiculous it is that drama isn't considered a real subject and I just found myself seriously not caring. I've lost my passion. I feel I don't fit in with these people who care so much about this subject, all they care about is performing and I seriously don't see the point. God, the Rikki Bissagar of year 11 would have been so pissed off that drama wasn't considered important that he would have expressed his anger through interpretive dance. (lol, drama joke)

The only problem is that I'm not passionate about anything, there's nothing that I REAAALLLLY want to do with my life and it's a serious problem. Whenever I go to my past time job a have this feeling of pure hatred of what I'm going to do for the next however many hours. I need to find something I'm passionate about, I refuse to be someone who hates what he does for the rest of his life. 

At least I have a thriving social life to fall back on. Oh wait. 

There's a lot to look forward to.

I quite like having a blog, however I'm finding it really difficult to have things to write about. i guess this is mostly due to the fact that I'm quite a boring person, my nights are mostly filled with catching up on TV, listening to music, drinking tea and playing board games with my lovely house mates and best friend. (chess & monopoly are my favourite) So I thought I would tell you about some of the things I'm looking forward in the upcoming year in more detail, as I write this I have an awful feeling I've already written something like this, that would show how little I have to talk about considering I've posted about 15 times.

Anyway I'm going to do it anyhow...

Soccer am : This Saturday I'm travelling up to London with my best friend and his family to watch soccer am get filmed. Only about 30 people get to go a week and the guest list is quite long so I'm chuffed I get to go and meet Tubes and the gang :) very exciting.  

"Lads" holiday : I put lads in brackets because I don't really like this term, I find it ever so cliché, also I'm not very laddy at all. But WHO CARES, me and the amazing people who I went to Amsterdam with have decided to go somewhere else in the word for a week of alcohol consumption. The destination is yet to be decided but I feel it will be somewhere like Zante or SHAGaluff (lol) as they're cheap and as poor university students is ideal.

Reading Festival : Because last year was so amazing me and Louis are going again, this time will be slightly different in form of the group of people. Although I'm sad I probably won't go with the group I did last year, going with only boys will be good as we won't get pushed around and have to leave a venue like we did last year ( The midnight beast, them 12 year old fans can get vicious and we had to leave.) Also this will be my second year so I will know my way around and know what to expect so should be amazing :D

I hope to be Writing more regularly but I like to write things because I want to, nothing that is sloppily done. so hopefully you enjoyed this and farewell :) x