here's to a pretty decent year

As there's only about 29 hours left of 2011 i though it would be fun to make my last blog post of 2011 about the year itself. Now of course ive had my hard days this year, some of which have been harder than others but overall 2011 has been a good year for me so i thought it would be fun to countdown my top 10 moments. Now this is difficult to do as some of them cover the space of a few days and others are just moments that made me jump up and down. With all that considered please enjoy my top 10 moments of 2011.

10. Getting a 2:1 in my first university essay:  This sounds weird as it doesn't really mean alot overall but in all honesty i believed i had failed, i have no confidence when it comes to academic work. So when i looked and saw i had done pretty well in this essay i had worked hard on it was a great feeling.

9. Winning a media Oscar: Again very weird and quite lame and also about school work. Basically my media teacher though it would be fun to host an Oscar based award evening for all the video's we had made all year for our coursework. The hall was packed with parents, teachers and students. My horror trailer won best lighting and was nominated for best overall production so i was very chuffed with that :)

8. Harry Potter ending: I love harry potter so much, its my favourite film series so to watch it be complete was amazing, the final film was my favourite of them all and yeah i loved it !

7. Rock challenge: Me dancing, HA. Still it was absolutely amazing, some of my best friends from home i only met this year through this event where school dance against each other. I loved the rehursals and the people and the show we put on, people kept saying how entertained they were watching, only slightly dampened by not winning but that's my competitiveness coming out. If the show was in 2011 it would have made it in but it ended December 2010.

6. Leaving Tesco: Although my last shift was nice as my bosses said they would miss me, i fucking hated that job. I used to dread the weekend as i worked Friday nights and it crushed my soul being there. So to leave was amazing.

5. Getting my ring: If you know me well you know how much i love my granddad, if you look on my hand i'll be wearing a gold ring with a black stone. My Granddad has worn this ring since he was 'a young man' as he put it. Well this year he gave it too me for a gift and it's my most cherished thing i own.

4. 18th: got a tatttoo, gifts, friends, pub, family i finally turned 18 so will never worry about getting alcohol or cigerrettes again. I love being 18 and my 18th birthday was a top day.

3. Reading Festival: was torn between this being second or third, Reading festival was 5 days in a tent in the rain with 3 of my very good friends. Was fucking amazing i got to see my favourite band ( ofwgkta ) and yeah was so good definitely going next year.

2. Amsterdam: AHHHH best week ever, 10 lads in a beaut flat in the centre of Amsterdam, don't wanna sound lame but so many drugs and was AMAZING. Didn't wasn't to come home was so good. Actually now  i write this this defiantly deserves to be above reading.

1: Getting into University:  Didn't ever think id go to uni, didn't think i'd get in right until i saw it on my laptop. It poured with rain results day which lead to me being in a car crash. The mood was set i needed 280 to get in  and i got 260, i went down from an A to a B in media so i was heartbroken. I did what im sure everyone was doing that day and constantly trying to get onto UCAS due to it's over capacity. Then i saw it written across the screen saying i had been accepted into Winchester, i jumped on my settee and screamed 'YES' my parents where sat in the living room with my sister and we all cheered, and celebrated.

So yeah 2011 has been very good some things didn't quite make it in such as discovering Tumblr which i love, finishing school and reuniting with a former childhood friend. Here's hoping that 2012 is just as good as 2011 with equal if not more memories.

stolen idea's

As many of you have been sent here from my twitter i assume you saw my tweet yesturday expressing my anger at a certain trailer i had witnessed.

Im sure we all have that dream where were rich and famous, now in my head ive been a football star and a singer. Unfortunatly i can't run very fast and have the voice of a goat being strangled so neither of these will come true. However i happen to be ok at the old drama so i guess the only chance i'll have to become rich or famous will be via the world of Hollywood, i know this most likely will never happen as so many people have these dreams but ey, nothing wrong with hopeing.

So yeah on one of my long dog walks or trying to get to sleep i tried to think of a film i could be in that would win me an oscar. I came up with two idea's one was based on people who die in there sleep and this happens to someone, so he's trying to do what it takes to break out of the dream and become a better person etc...
I also had another idea about two people who are together and the girl slips into a coma ( mila kunis or someone ;) due to an accident and the story is about the boy sitting by her side and being with her when she wakes up and no longer remembers him. I was actually quite impressed with my idea although most likely i was influenced by something i had watched or read and has proberly previosuly been done.  Anyway imagine my anger when i was scrolling through Tumblr when i saw an advert for 'the vow' which is pretty much the same thing. Blahh, oh well i guess i'll have to think of a new film to keep me entertained as i try to get to sleep.
I was speaking to my best friends dad and similar things happend to him when he came up with an invention to try and make him rich and a few months later it had been produced by some company. So i guess this type of thing happens to lots of people, i'll just man up and keep going with my life.

Also if my spelling is off im sorry, im on my sisters laptop and it doesn't say when you make a mistake.

The meanings

Yes this two is about tattoo's, i'm sorry if my blog posts are starting to get a little repetitive about either university or tattoo's but these things are properly the two biggest things in my life atm. Which if you think about it is pretty pathetic but oh well. Anyway i diverge, my last post about tattoo's left the impression that i absolutely hate it when anyone asks about tattoo's but this is incorrect. I don't mind it when someone has a genuine interest, only when they ask in order to judge if the reason behind isn't enough for them. My tattoo's don't have obvious meanings thus get questions on what they represent so I thought I would go through in order which one represents.

heart & music note, right arm: I got this tattoo when i was 16 years old very late November 2009, it's inspired by the lyric 'if you've lost you're faith in love and music the end won't be long.' From the song the good old days by The Libertines one of my favourite bands, i knew i wanted a tattoo somewhat based on music and this seemed fitting.

3 stars, left wrist: Each star represents one of my nephews or niece, Demi, Harrison, Callum. I love them all very much so they deserve to be on my body, i was 17 when this was done.

Beatles silhouette, inner arm: Done on my 18th birthday, my uncles funeral they played 'while my guitar gently weeps' by George Harrison, i was also slightly obsessed with John Lennon.

mountains, left leg: In summer of 2010 i went to India for a month, did charity work and climbed a mountain there it was one of the most rewarding things i have ever done so needed a tattoo to represent the trip.  So I got a section of the Mountain i climbed on my leg that was taken by one of my fellow trekkers.

3 birds, right wrist: Parallel to my 3 stars, this time for each of my 3 sisters. This has been described many times as people's favourites of my tattoo's and once the nicest tattoo someone had ever seen. People say they want birds after seeing it... so not to bad :)

anchor, left arm: not to much meaning behind this one, was done on a bit of an impulse but for some reason it reminds me of home. And tbh i quite like anchors so there we go.

Owl & two roses, right bicep: lol bicep, the newest and so far biggest of my tattoo's, represents the wisdom and protection of my granddad. Each rose is for my parents. Thought it would be nice to look at when at Uni.

December 25th..

today, why sir it's Christmas day

Although im sure this will be very boring i thought i will tell you all about my Christmas.
Ok so after falling asleep at about 3 the night before i was woken up at the disgusting time of 7:45 by my 17 year old sister who had been up since 6. Terrible start to the day as i was absolutely shattered but alas i was up to open my presents from Santa (yes at the age of 18 i still get presents from Santa) and after that from my parents.
We all open our presents in age order so my little sis went first and then me, i was bloody chuffed at what i got i was very spoilt, although i think my parents are a little pissed that they spent hundreds of pounds and my fav gifts  were a owl keyring and a pair of amazingly fluffy socks.

We then waited for the other family to arrive for more gifts and we then had our lovely Christmas dinner. I had been drinking all day and to the disgust of my older sis i went for a nap at 4:30... such a poor student like my family kept saying but i was close to falling asleep.

After being rudely awoken by my cousin i went downstairs to discover most ofmy family drunk including my gran who had been doing shots. lad.

After a bath at about 11 we drunkenly played mj dance and singstar until 3in the morning.

hope you all had a good day i sure did :)


here's a photo of my family - one of my sisters as she was in essex

semester one.... finito

im very sorry i haven't done a new post in a while but ive been very busy with this little thing called university...
so i thought id do my blog about my first semester at Winchester.

Well where should i start.... at the start (that was really funny in my head) i got there on the 20th September which if you think about it wasnt even that long ago but so many things have changed and how many people i have met that i truly believe will be friends for a very long time. Anyway after a few months of alcohol. hardwork, friends made, easywork, nights in, nights out etc etc i am now home in Bournemouth and so happy as today i found out i got a 2:1 in my first essay, passed my graded presentation and improvised piece so yeah. Although i felt like ive done fuck all work i seem to be doing ok:)

i cant wait (well i can) until January 16th where i'll hopefully meet more people and pick up a few more memories.

x

Christmas blues

Not going to lie i love the Christmas time, but has also been around the time of year some of the worst moments of my life have occurred. Today marks the third year anniversary of my uncle's death.
I cant really believe its been three years since i found out, he was a lovely man who although had an element of mystery about him i loved very much. these are the lyrics to the song 'while my guitar gently weeps' by George Harrison that was played at his funeral and also is the reason i have the Beatles tattooed on my arm. Not many people no that's the reason but there you go...


I look at you all see the love there that's sleeping 
While my guitar gently weeps 
I look at the floor and I see it need sweeping 
Still my guitar gently weeps 

I don't know why nobody told you 
how to unfold your love 
I don't know how someone controlled you 
they bought and sold you 

I look at the world and I notice it's turning 
While my guitar gently weeps 
With every mistake we must surely be learning 
Still my guitar gently weeps. 

tattoo's.

Ok today ive decided that instead of talking about my day im going to talk about my love for tattoos 1. because my day was shit and 2. i fucking love tattoo's they're a huge part of my life and i just like talking about them :)

I personally think tattoo's are amazing, i currently have 6 and getting another one ( my biggest to date ) on the 18th dec, i absolutely cant wait. Ive wanted a tattoo since about year 8, i think i wanted an angel on my arm with only god can judge me or something like that and my fascination for them has just grown ever since.

I was 16 when i got my first tattoo a little heart and music sign on my arm, even know it is the smallest tattoo ever, took about 2 minutes and cost a mere 20 quid i absolutely love it, i still remember how excited i was to get it and how happy i was after it had been done.Loads of people say to me ''you're going to regret that'' and tbh all these people can personally fuck right off, its fine to have an opinion and if you dont like/want any tattoo's that's fine it's your life just dont tell me what to do with mine. I personally never regret anything that made me happy,and all my tattoos have made me happy so therefore i wont be regretting them :)

Another question i get asked and im sure everyone with a tattoo is asked is "what does that mean?" "what does that represent?" another fucking annoying question, it's like you're being judged by others and if your reason for having a tattoo isnt good enough theyre going to try and scratch it off. It's fine if you're generally interested in tattoos but i hate it when it's said just for another reason to judge what you've done.

If i was even slightly talented at art i would defiantly attempt to become a tattoo artist,i thinkit would amazing to be able to bring that much joy to someone and i just love being in the studio so it would be perfect. As it so happens i can draw about as well as a blind person with no hands so for now i'll stick with the drama degree :)

hope those who read this enjoyed it, and if you ever want to talk to me about tattoo's feel free as i could spend every waking moment talking and looking at them.

winter times

i had an amazing weekend back at home, loved seeing my family and friends etc etc.. probably more than ever it was difficult coming back to Winchester. My dad and nephew took me to the train station and i felt like absolute shit, i miss my nephew very much when im here so having to sit on a train in the freezing cold with him waving goodbye was very hard to do, looking forward to spending a month with him at Christmas.

Winchester hasn't changed, not much is going on really i had the shittest lecture of the term on Monday, we had to do these presentations which were completely pointless as about 1 3/4 hours of it wasn't even about the play im doing so pointless. Almost fell asleep,walked out, killed myself 3 times over. I also realized just how much i hate some of the people in my group, i mean most are lovely but some of them really frustrate me and make me not want to continue. Hopefully the course gets better or i wont be happy.

The real big story right now is about my two good friends, im not really sure whats going on with them as they've been together for ages but having left to go to different uni's having a hard time. not reallysure whats going to happen but hope w.e does we can all still hang out for new years etc or that would suck :)

much love x

4/12/2011

today is Sunday, ive spent the weekend back at my home in Poole as i came to see my old school's show at the light house which i absolutely LOVED it was lovely seeing so many familiar faces on stage. It was weird not being on stage like i had been the past two years beforehand but still a lovely evening. Today im going to be having a lovely family roast and going to get a coffee in costa with an old friend for a catch up which should lovely :)

my first blog :)

ok i should start off by introducing myself, although im not sure how this website works or if anyone will read this ( most likely not but life goes on ) anyway my name is Rikki Bissagar im 18 and from Poole in Dorset. I currently study drama at the university of Winchester i absolutely love it there, the people ive met really makes me think about how many people are in the world that i will most likely never meet. Just living 1 hour up the road from the place ive lived all my life is HUGE for me but im really enjoying the experience so far. I should also say ive been influenced to write this by the lovely beautblues, as i enjoy reading her blog so maybe someone will enjoy reading mine ..... here's my face  ...im the male in the middle :)